tamnhed

Hello again..
The week hasn't been that much to talk about since I just have been in school for about one day.. But these days at home have made me realize one thing or two.. These days have made me think about where my life is going and which people who will be with me one the jurney..

The things that's spinning around in my head is not things that are there for now, they have been there for a long time without me knowing about it.. They have got me thinking about what I've lost and what I have..
What I've lost can't be replaced and I hope they know that but sometimes they seems so much happier now then ever so I don't want to interruped their life.. I want them to be happy but it feels like they are happier without me, I know I'm not supposted to think like that but I can't help it.. I can't help start thinking about those lost times we spent together and how much it hurts knowing that it wont be like that again..

Those who are in my life now should really know how much they mean to me, but sometimes it's hard to tell them.. I know I haven't been the easiest one in a while but I don't know if I want to change or if I lose those who loves me for whom I am right know if I change..

I don't know what I would do without you darling! You're my meaning, you're my life! <3 Why can't the world see how much you mean to me, and how much I love you?! You're always there listening to me and atleast tries to give me advise! I Love You Christian Erik Göran Widén for who you are and for you loving me! <3

~  Gone in a blink?   ~